The feeling you have no one,.
But in reality you have people.
Feeling like you have literally no one to go to.
When you have a handful.
Paranoid you’re just annoying or whining to those you could go to.
So you don’t even try.
Feeling like your feelings don’t matter because others have worse going on.
But they do matter, no matter how small or how big they are.
The feeling of running away or distancing yourself from someone to make you okay.
But it doesn’t
Thinking today will be a happy day, and you wont let anything ruin it.
But you do.
Thinking someone is upset with you.
Feeling guilty that you just made everything about you when they’re just upset in general.
Feeling like you are going to fail.
Feeling absolutely crippled
My life summed up basically in one post. I know I have people. But I still feel alone. I want to run away to stop the hurt, but it doesn’t. I want to go to people and not feel they are thinking “stop being a little cry baby”. I want to stop assuming and then finding out I’m making it all about me when my friend is the one hurting. I want to believe in myself and not feel like whatever I do it’s going to fail. I want to control my happiness and not let anything ruin it meaning me. I want to be able to breathe not suffocate with anxiety. I want to be able to walk down a path to be healthy, and not feel paralyzed by this depression…
My biggest enemy is me.